I realised today (thanks to a lovely comment from Steph) that I haven't updated since the last stressy post....
Things are looking up-or rather I am trying to - we had the medication appointment for Oscar, talked through a lot of queries and worries with the doctor and are trialling medication. It hasn't kicked in so far as we're starting on the smallest dose - but I'm hoping it will be a positive move and I think it's worth trying it - we don't have to stay on it....
The diabetes - I've started Weightwatchers again and have lost at least 3.5lbs (no weigh in this week so I'm not sure if it's more than that - it was that last monday). The doc isn't hassling me. I'm not on medication (unlike the boys!) so there seems to be no immediate effect (apart from the diet but hell - I needed to lose weight anyway).
The ankle -I have some good days - some sore ones. Actually if I'm honest it's sore every evening but some days it's ok. It's still really swollen which is a bit of a worry. But the more I do my exercises the better it will get.
Toby is having better days. My mum and dad are back from Oz which makes me happy again. My sister will be here in 16 days and one of my lovely stonecutter chums is flying in on the 10th for a weekend in London and I get to see her - she's one of my sunflower girls - who had their tattoo done with me - very amazing I get to see her in the UK!
The major drama I couldn't get into isn't resolved. But I don't know if it can be - I can't be the one to initiate it this time. I'm still very very sad about it but trying to move on.
The loft is FINALLY done. And this has been the first week with NO builders or painters in the house. And Rob and I finally moved into our dream bedroom. And slowly are getting it in shape and clearing out the old. And here is a little film about our first night in...
I should be thankful for what I have. And thank you for letting me splarge out my stress and pain before. And thank you everyone who either commented on the blog or contacted me. My sister was amazing - showering me with gifts from afar. My lovely friend Joyce came down from Yorkshire and cooked me dinner and listened. My lovely friend Pearl came over and bought me so much sushi....and listened. And made me treasure my friendships - they're what keeps me sane. So to all my friends - virtual, emotional, long term, short term, people I've met in real life and those I haven't been lucky enough to (yet)....THANK YOU.
(Just reading that last para back - how my friends know the way to comfort me is with food! Joyce cooked a low calorie, low point, bloody delicious dinner and sushi isn't going to kill my weightwatchers' points - both considerate and lovely choices! )
I do feel better. Honest.