Reality HITS

So....blogger is working again thank God - I still can't post on Vox (or even comment so those people whose blogs I read - I'm still reading - honest!)

Was desperate to get here yesterday and rant...now I'll be calmer.....

Monday. My first day alone with both boys and no nursery. ARGHHHHH!!! I now realise I've been living in cloud cuckoo land for the last 4 weeks. Having Rob for 3 weeks....having Oz in nursery every day. I had NO idea what it was REALLY like to have 2 children....and now I do. Oh yes. I do.

It was hell! Absolutely. How do you do it oh mothers of multiples? I know - I'll get the hang of it eventually but blimey. It was tough.

It was the first time Oscar had to deal with the fact that Toby feeds for bloody ages. And there's no one else around to distract him. So Oz was jumping on me...trying to pull Toby off....purposely doing things he knows he shouldn't like climbing on Toby's baby bjorn chair to try and make me get up and put Toby down. And I was so sleepy cos I had had to get up instead of being allowed by my amazing hubby to go back to sleep after the 6am feed while he takes Oz to nursery.

We were meeting a friend at a soft play place at 10 - it didn't open till 10 - and those first few hours from when Rob left at 8 to leaving the house at 9.50 where tough. Once we got to the playplace it was fine.

Leaving however was not easy. And Oz wouldn't get in the carseat and was jumping around the inside of the car....while Toby and I shivered outside. I just slammed the doors and ignored him. He eventually did what he was told.

Then trying to get Oscar's lunch together while Toby SCREAMED for a feed and Oz had a tantrum cos he didn't want what I was cooking. Then he wouldn't eat it. At this point I was starving cos I hadn't eaten yet, I was having an internal argument with myself over whether I should go to sleep at lunchtime or eat.....I tried to get Oscar up the stairs for his nap - again Toby was screaming - and that turned into a fight.

I can see why people think they turn into screamy mummies when they have 2 cos I spent most of the morning telling Oscar off. He did go for his nap. And I managed to cook myself the nutritious lunch of crispy pancakes while feeding Toby and then we both slept for an hour.

The afternoon wasn't too bad. My friend from the morning was going to come round with her 2 kids but I cancelled - couldn't cope with the thought of it and the house looked like a bombsite and I had no idea how I could tidy up, make tea and cope with 2 two year olds and a 7 month old and have a conversation without crying or jibbering.

So Oz coloured lots of pictures I printed off Cbeebies website. And Toby fed. And fed some more. And I managed to boil the kettle though didn't manage to make a cup of tea....

It'll get easier. That was the first day. And I also appreciate it was tough on Oscar cos that was the first day he didn't have anyone else to give him attention and he had to share me. And soon Toby won't feed ALL the bloody time.....I hope.

So from now on, like the boomtown rats, I don't like Mondays....

Today has been bliss. Woke up at 8.30. Have pottered around, done a wash, blogged, checked my email.......

Let's see how tomorrow goes - Oz is at nursery in the morning.